Thursday, January 15, 2026

For The Furniture ...memories of Vienna, Austria 1938



                                                                                                         My mother Listening to the Opera 
                                                                                          on a Saturday Afternoon

      My late husband Josh and I dragged so much Furniture out of the Alley. The comfortable sitting

 chairs that filled the living room and famously once a huge desk jutted up a fence in the alley near our 

old apartment. I spotted it, Josh liked it and there we were dragging it down the alley and into the 

apartment and then later across town to the back porch where it took up way too much room My good

neighbor Matt laboriously took it apart and put it in my garage where it now sits. I will get rid of it in 

the Spring. Over time there was other furniture given to us by friends and family like this recliner  chair 

I sit in now that belonged to dear Heidi Schwabacher who I cared for. We inherited it after her death.

 Josh made that recliner his own as he read countless books or writhed in pain...(that is another story.)

This recliner is where I sit as I look around at the Inherited Furniture of Memory that I received from 

my late mother Emily.
 
       My mother grew up in Vienna, Austria. Far away from the fields where my late father labored in the sun picking cotton as his sister told him stories of the movies she had seen. My grandfather was a clerk at the American Embassy and married the beautiful woman Ann my grandmother as she came to process her visa to go to American to study. They settled into an upper class life with maids and the finest furniture much of which I later inherited. The apartment was full of the finest furniture Biedermeyer was the name.  The furniture was the silent witness to the Anschluss in Vienna when Nazi forces occupied the city. Although American my mothers family had to put up a Nazi flag on their balcony. However they were able to put a small American flag next to it. 
Yes, this furniture was the silent witness to the brutality of the Nazis. My mother survived but there were hidden mystical sparks that were not revealed for decades. My late grandmother Ann grew up in an Orthodox Jewish home in Cimpulung Moldevesc in Romania. She left the poverty of that and went to Vienna in hopes of studying in American and met the Clerk Hugo Wallenfels at the American Embassy who she married. Those Jewish sparks flickered but were not revealed. 
      They entertained and many people sat on the furniture....Because of the war they were transferred to Los Angelos. The furniture followed them on a ship that was torpedoed, but as luck would have it, the boat tipped up and the furniture was in the end above the waterline. There in splendor of LA the furniture that had seen so much and heard the Nazi boots marching past led a benign existence.
My brave Mother Emily Not Saluting at a Nazi Rally in 
Berlin in the 1930's

Later after they died all the furniture was shipped to Minneapolis where it filled up our home at 3220 Hennepin Avenue. I grew up with it and the dining room table held our everyday family meals and countless Sunday dinners where my father Jim would cook Sukiyaki or fried chicken in the electric skillet. When the guests came there would be lively discussions and my father would orate his political opinions and jump up from the table to locate precisely the book he was reading. The back porch bookshelves groaned under the weight of his political books that focused on WW 2 and Nazi Germany.

There were liberal discussions and even as their friends railed against the current administration they knew Democracy were never falter. 

The years passed quickly..sometimes benignly and sometimes with great difficulties as I navigated caring for my parents with my brother who also needed care. We sat at the dining room table from Vienna eating the simple dinner Wallace and I had made as we joked in the kitchen. He was "Chef Pierre" and I was "Chef Claudine' A plate of cheese sandwiches, some fish I baked, mashed potatoes.

   My mother died at home January 11, 2011. Then I turned to care for my father. It was only him and me at the table which felt so big now.

We said good bye to the old house and he moved in with Josh and me until his death August 16, 2012.

It was time to move the furniture to my house. A good friend helped me bring the dining room table over to our home in south minneapolis. I remembering him carrying it over his shoulder through the back yard. 

Later i got the small tables, the nesting tables smeared with paint from my brother using them as a palette.

Over the years more Viennese furniture came to my home. The buffet transformed by my sister and boyfriend. 

I had a mystical experience with the big chair. After a long search for my Jewish roots I took my family up north for a few days and had 2 days to myself to write up my Jewish Journey in preparation to going to the mikvah to affirm my Jewish ancestry. I entered the small cabin my brother looked after and lo and behold there was my grandmothers chair that I sat in to write up my 15 year search. 

Later my sister brought me the small chair with its original upholstery.

And so time passes and now democracy falters under a cruel president. It has been a tense and horrible week in Minneapolis as ICE presides now like the Nazis who once marched through Vienna. Once again the furniture bears silent witness to people hauled away. To protests. To clashes. and to the mayor and govenor speaking out against the lawless prescence of ICE. Our president threatens the Insurrection Act. I worry deeply about what comes next as I sit in my grandmothers chair bearing witness once again to a cruel and inhuman turn of events.





  






 

Tuesday, March 18, 2025

Ode For Saint Patricks Day

SAINT PATRICK'S DAY MUSINGS for March 17, 2025

Even though I am full of visions and inspirations from a Journey South...I pause to remamber
my Irish Island Past with this post!


Three drawings done in the moment at URBAN FORAGE CIDER HOUSE 
Minneapolis, Minnesota. 31st and Lake Street.
.  

So Memories gather round as they do on Saint Patricks Day when I recall my solitary life
on the small island of Inisheer so long ago...almost 50 years ago now..when donkey's roamed the
grasses of the hand planted plain...when I lived in the thatched cottage of the old storyteller 
Joe Mairthain and came away with so many stories to tell...and so I remain a storyteller today
weaving tales and drawings from my every day life...but stopping to remember my island past..
when the islanders wore home spun and how weather was forecast by the wind direction.


And there by my lonesome introverted hearth with the fire warming my knees
dreaming of a life I did not know I would have...as mystical sparks flew from the flames
I imagined the stories told around this fire and perhaps sensed some Jewish mystical sparks
flying about that would shape my future some 28 years hence...and did I know or not know I would teach...and that I would marry a very tall man who would visit the island with me in 1987..
and that life would bring this and would bring that and after a long illness he would pass away in 2019...and I would grieve him a long long time...before my heart took flight again.....

It is all a mystery and here is my sacred hearth that still warms me in memory

 
And so the island remains..so large and so small that
now I can hold it in my hand and write out the story to you.

Happy St Patricks Day to ye!












 

Monday, February 10, 2025

Meditation in Tough TImes

   Come, come whoever you are.

Wanderer, worshipper

lover of leaving. It doesn't matter

ours is Not a caravan of despair

Come, even if you have broken

your vows a thousand times...

Come yet again,

Come              Come

-Jeladin Rumi




Several Times a Week I tune into the Institute for Jewish Studies Meditation Room
It is always rich and inward.  Full of Jewish text and guidance.
Full of insights from many wise and insightful rabbis.
Always it is nourishing and always 
I draw and document some inner aspect of it.

Come! Come! Wherever you are!
This was for the parsha text called BO from about two weeks ago.
Bo means Come!!
All the more meaningful!



The Peddler: Honoring my Great Grandfather Isaac Marion



The Peddler: Honoring my Great Grandfather Isaac Marion

Once upon a time a long time ago...before my memory was formed

Before I was born..my ancestor Isaac Marion was a peddler
who sold Seltzer Water in the town of Cimplulong Moldesvec
in Northern Romania.

Once upon a time a long time ago I started my inner search 
to connect to my Jewish ancestors 
ignited by the mystical sparks I felt 
as I taught in the Jewish Day School
in St Paul Minnesota.

Guided by my dreams and inner ruminations I was able
to flounder and find my way.

A 1998 trip to Romania including a visit to 
Cimpulong Moldesvec illuminated my search

But it would be 5 more years until I made 
my way to the mikvah under the guidance 
of Rabbi Allen...

 so now in this present moment
 I am 72 years old.

Sipping seltzer water as I write.
Here I am peddling my wares.

My cards, my Romance Zine
my prints, my paintings.

This week it has been small
meaningful endeavors. 
I put my Romance Zine out into the world
in two shops to Nokomis Gallery by Lake Nokomis
and The Art Shoppe at Global Market on Lake Street.
Just in time for Valentines Day!

I have larger ideas and larger works
but these humble attempts 
somehow connect me to my great grandfather Isaac
the peddler of seltzer water.
I realize my DNA is to be a peddler
of my wares and is who I am.

A peddler watches and tries to peddle their wares
wherever they can. 
It's hard work...but they keep pushing 
their wagon of ware along
Shouting!
Here is the inner work of my imagination, Soul and Heart!
Please buy my creative wares!!
It takes Courage! and Chutzpah! and Charm!
 
My Homemade Romance Zine Displays!!!







 

Monday, January 27, 2025

Dealing with Tough Times: Becoming a Mountain Goat

 


Metaphor of the Mountain Goat

                     This late afternoon as I swam in the pool and watched the light fade I thought back
six years to precisely this time of day when my life was so very different.

As the light faded and the wind picked up I would arrive at Cardio Renal at Hennepin Healthcare to attend to my late husband Josh and see what the day's needs were. I tried to arrive in time for supper. Even if it was just a tray of mediocre food perched on a small table at the end of his bed. Sometimes I would go for a treat down to the cafeteria.

               There he was in that existential hospital time with tubes hooked up and various machines beeping. We talked. Sometimes argued. He was often exhausted. It was all uncertain. Questions gathered around and filled the room and clogged the doorway. What next?

               Death was all too evident and a somewhat distant at that time...but its shadowy prescense filled the room as well.

              I drew him stretched out on the bed. All seven feet of him. 
The Yellow gladiolas I brought him and those who came to our side.

              So it went on day to day....until one day I had a creative inspiration that carried me through the weeks ahead. As I turned onto  Hwy 55 going north through the ice and snow I thought to myself. " Why I am a Mountain Goat!" I can manage these difficult situations Just Fine. I can even hang upside down!"

And thus I found a Creative Emotional Template that I drew through for the next six weeks.

This time taught me that I could come Close to Difficulties and instead of backing away embrace them with an image that gave me clarity, compassion and Humor.
Here are excerpts from that 65 drawing series:
   
             I allowed the Plucky Mountain Goat to guide me and help me navigate difficult  Territory



   Josh died April 10th 2019 and I drew through my years of Grief. 

    But the wisdom of the Mountain Goat comes to me now in these difficult Political Times.
I know I can come Close to what is hard and draw it. With gratitude I perceive that the hardest
times often hold the most insight and silver linings.










Monday, January 20, 2025

My late mother's Courage and Immigration Court

 For Today

Inauguration Day January 20, 2025

I turn to face my late mother Emily's courage as she did not salute at a
rally in Berlin in the 1930's when everyone was raising their hand
"Heil Hitler" Her status with her father in American diplomatic circles
gave her immunity. Nonetheless her Courage shines through.
Later she became a Conscientious Objector.
I turn to face my late mother Emily's Courage at these difficult times.

Months and Years later I am asked to draw in Immigration Court.
Amid all the complexity I turn to The Statue of Liberty and pray
her words remain for these struggling immigrants trying to make their way.
.   
   "Give me your tired, your poor,
your huddled masses yearning to breathe,
free the wretched refuse 
of your teeming shores
send these, the Homeless 
tempest tossed to me.
I raise my Lamp beside the Golden Door"